黃昏之戀 05

黃昏之戀 05

There was no escape. I went into the room, my heart in confusion 混亂, and saw the girl sleeping in the enormous 巨大的bed for hire 租用, as naked 赤裸and helpless as the day she was born.

She lay on her side側躺, facing the door, illuminated照亮 from the ceiling 天花板by an intense強烈的 light that spared no detail 一覽無餘.

I sat down to contemplate 沉思her from the edge 邊緣of the bed, my five senses感官 under a spell 迷住.

She was dark and warm. She had been subjected to承受 a regimen 攝生法of hygiene 衛生and beautification 美容that did not overlook 忽略even the incipient 接受者down on her pubis 恥骨.

Her hair had been curled捲曲, and she wore natural polish 光亮on the nails 指甲of her fingers and toes腳趾頭, but her molasses糖漿-colored skin, looked rough粗糙 and mistreated 沒保養好.

Her newborn breasts 胸部still seemed like a boy’s, but they appeared full to bursting 爆開with a secret energy 能源that was ready to explode 爆炸.

The best part of her body were her large, silent-stepping 腳步輕盈 feet with toes as long as sensitive 敏感as fingers.

She was drenched浸泡 in phosphorescent 閃亮perspiration 汗水despite the fan 電風扇, and the heat became unbearable 無法忍受as the night progressed 進行.

It was impossible to imagine what her face was like under the paint 粉面applied with a heavy hand, the thick layer of rice powder粉撲 with two daubs 塗抹of rouge 胭脂on her cheeks, the false lashes睫毛, her eyebrows眉毛 and lids眼皮 smoky with kohl 化裝墨, her lips augmented 增強by a chocolate glaze 釉色 .

But the adornments 裝飾and cosmetics化裝品 could not hide her character特性: the haughty 高傲nose,, heavy eyebrows 眉毛, intense 強烈的lips. I thought: A tender 幼嫩 young fighting bull 小牛.

At eleven I tended to 照顧my routine例行的 procedures 程序in the bathroom, where the poor girl’s clothes were folded 摺疊on a chair with a rich girl’s refinement細膩: an etamine dress with a butterfly蝴蝶 print 花案, cheap yellow panties短內褲, and fiber 纖維sandals涼鞋.

On top of the clothing were an inexpensive bracelet 手鐲and a very fine chain with a medal 獎牌of the Virgin 聖母.

On the edge of the sink水槽, a handbag with a lipstick 口紅, a compact 盒of rouge胭脂, a key, and some looses 鬆散的coins. Everything so cheap and shabby襤褸 with use that I couldn’t imagine anyone as poor as she was.

I undressed 脫衣so as not to muss 弄髒the silk shirt襯衣and pressed熨燙 linen 亞麻西裝. I urinated 尿尿in the chain-flush 抽水toilet 馬桶, sitting down as Florina de Dios had taught me to do from the time I was a boy so I would not wet弄溼the rim 邊緣of the bowl 盆子, and still, modesty aside 除了謙恭外, with the immediate, steady 穩定stream 尿流of an untamed 未馴服的colt 小馬.

Before I went out I peered偷窺 into the mirror over the sink水嘈. The horse that looked back at me from the other side was not dead but funereal令人沮喪, and he had a Pope’s 教皇般dewlaps 垂肉, puffy 腫脹的eyelids, and thin, lank 不捲曲的hair that had once been my musician’s mane鬃毛 .

“ Shit,” I said to him, “ what can I do if you don’t love me?’

雄伯曰:這段性愛前上盥洗室的描述頗為詭異。他一方面將自己比喻為未馴服的小馬在尿尿,另一方面,走出盥洗室時窺視一下水槽上鏡中的自己,也是一頭馬從另一端觀看自己,雖然尚未死亡,但是令人沮喪。回想起自己年輕當音樂家時的馬鬃張揚般地意氣風發,不禁感歎:「若你不愛我,我能做些什麼?」他,你,我,實際上是內心告白的自言自語:「自己若不懂得愛自己?誰會來愛你?」

Trying not to wake her, I sat on the bed, naked, my eyes accustomed by now to the deceptions欺騙 of the red light, and I scrutinized審察 her inch by inch.

I ran the tip 尖端of my index finger 食指along the damp nape 頸項of her neck, and she shivered顫抖 inside, along the length of her body, like a chord 弦on the harp 豎琴, turned toward me with a grumble咕嚕, and enveloped 蓋住 me in the ambience 氣氛of her acid 酸性breath 呼吸.

I pinched捏著 her nose with my thumb 大姆指and index finger 食指, and she shook herself, moved her head away, and turned her back to me without waking.

I succumbed to 屈服於 an unforeseen 出乎意料temptation 誘惑and tried to separate 分開her legs with my knee.

On the first two attempts 企圖, she resisted 抗拒with tensed 緊密thighs大腿. I sang into her ear: Angels 天使surround 環繞the bed of Delgadina. She relaxed a little. A warm current 水流traveled up my veins 靜脈, and my slow, retired animal woke from its long sleep.

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