雄伯手記980218

雄伯手記980218

 

下載到蘋果電腦總裁史提夫、約伯Steve Jobs在史坦彿大學的演講的錄音及講稿。他以親身的經歷跟歷練作為驗證,侃侃而談梃而走險的人生觀,讓人心儀不已。由於下周想要出去單車遠遊,僅譯後面一部份,激勵自己的士氣:

 

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “ If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “ If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?”  And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

 

當我十七歲時,我閱讀一句引言,大意是說:「假如你過每一天好似那是最後一天,終有一天你會覺得那是絕對正確。」這句話讓我印象深刻,在此後過去三十三年來,我每天早晨照著鏡子,問自己:「假如今天是我生命的最後一天,我會做我今天即將要做的事嗎?」每當連續好幾天的回答是「不」,我知道我需要做一些調整。

 

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything—all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure—these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

 

記住不久我將死亡是我曾遇過的最重要的工具,用以幫助我做生命的重大抉擇。因為幾乎每一件事情,所有外在的期望,所有的驕傲,所有尷尬與失敗的恐懼,在面臨死亡時都會消失,只留下真正重要的。記住你將要死亡是我所知道的最好的方法,避免以為你有什麼好損失的想法。你已經是光棍一條,沒有理由不遵照自己的心意。

 

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctor told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctors advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for “ prepare to die” . It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

 

大約一年前,醫生診斷我有癌症。我在早上七點半接受掃瞄,很清楚顯示我的胰腺有腫瘤。我當時甚至不知道胰腺是什麼。醫生告訴我,這幾乎可確定是無法療治的一種癌,預期我不會超過三到六個月可活。醫生勸告我回家料理事情。照醫生的說法,那就是準備後事。這意味著你要要在幾個月內告訴你的兒女,以後十年才要說的事情。也意味著你要確定每件事都料理好,這樣你的家人才不會到時手忙腳亂。這意味著要辭別的時候。

 

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they tuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into  my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m now.

 

我整天都生活在那個診斷當中。後來有一天晚上我去照切片檢查。醫生將內診鏡從我的喉嚨伸入,經過胃到內臟,放一根針到我的胰腺,從腫瘤上取出一些細胞。我被麻醉,但是我的太太當時在那裡,告訴我說,當醫生觀看顯微鏡下的細胞時,他們喜極而泣,因為那證明是很罕見的一種胰腺癌,用外科手術是可以切除的。我接受手術,現在痊癒了。

 

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope it’s the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainly than when death was a useful but purely intellectual conscept.

 

那是我最靠近死亡的一次,我希望是再過幾十年這還是最靠近的。由於曾經活過這段經歷,我現在能更加確定地對大家說,因為死亡不僅僅是一個有用但是完全是知識上的觀念。

 

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out of the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quit true.

 

沒有人想要死。即使想要上天堂的人都不想說是為了要去那裡而死。可是,死亡是每個人終究要到達的目的地。沒有人曾逃避過死亡。那就是人生的真相,死亡是人生獨一無二的最佳設計。死亡是人生轉換的仲介。它清理老舊的一代,讓位給新生的一代。現在你們是新生的一代,但是不久將來的一天,你們將漸漸成為老舊的一代,然後被清理掉。抱歉說得如此戲劇化,但事實是這樣。

 

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma—which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

 

你們的時間是有限,所以不要浪費在過別人的生活。不要被教條所陷住,過著別人思想的結果。不要讓別人意見的噪音淹沒你自己的意見,更重要的,要有勇氣遵照自己的心意跟直覺。說不出所以然,但是心意跟直覺已經知道你真正想要成為什麼。其它的一切都是次要。

 

When I was you young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menic Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960’s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

 

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it was the words: “ Stay Hungry !Stay Foolish! ” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

 

Stay Hungry ! Stay Foolish!

 

在我年輕時,有一本令人驚奇的雜誌叫「全球目錄」,那是我那一代最好的聖經之一,由住在距離門尼公園此地不遠,名叫史提歐、布朗得所創辦。他以詩意的筆觸使雜誌內容栩栩如生。那是六十年代晚期,個人電腦及網路雜誌尚未開始,所以它都是用打字機,剪刀,及傳統攝影機所製作,有點像印刷版的古狗搜尋,但出現早於古狗搜索三十五年。那真是理想主義,充溢著乾淨俐落的工具跟新奇的點子。

 

史提歐跟他的團隊出版好幾期的「全球目錄」,然後就在大為盛行時,他們發行最後一期。那是七十年代中期,我當時是你們現在的年紀。在他們最後一期的背後封面,有一張大清晨鄉村道路的照片,你們若有冒險精神,會發現自己在那裡晨跑。在照片底下是幾個字:「嚮往不已!寧拙不懈!」那是他門停刊的告別辭。嚮往不已,寧拙不懈。我一生都但願如此。現在你們正當畢業,重新開始之際,我僅以此祝福。

 

嚮往不已!寧拙不懈!

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