Why Am I So Clever?

 

Why I Am So Clever

By Nietzsche

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   Why do I know a few more things? Why am I so clever altogether? I have never reflected on questions that are none—I have not squandered myself.—I have ,for example, no experience of actual religious difficulties. I am entirely at a loss to know to what extent I ought to have felt ‘sinful’. I likewise lack a reliable criterion of a pang of conscience: from what one hears of it, a pang of conscience does not seem to me anything respectable…

為什麼我懂得比別人多?為什麼我如此聰明?因為有些瑣碎無聊的問題,我根本不屑一顧,我才不浪費我的寶貴時間。例如,我從未為實際的宗教問題所困擾。

所謂「原罪」我完全不予理會。「良心不安」對我而言也是缺乏可靠的準則。據我所知,人為「良心不安」所困擾,實在不是什麼光彩的事。

  I should not like to leave an act in the lurch afterwards, I would as a matter of principle prefer to leave the evil outcome, the consequences, out of the question of values. When the outcome is evil one can easily lose the true eye for one has done: a pang of conscience seems to me a kind of ‘evil eye’. To honor to oneself something that went wrong all the more because it went wrong—that rather would accord with my morality.—‘God’, ‘immortality of the soul’ ‘redemption’, ‘the Beyond’, all of them concepts to which I have given no attention and no time, not even as a child—perhaps I was never childish enough for it?

 我不想要把事情弄得曖昧不明。原則上,我寧可認為:「惡有惡報」的觀念,不涉及價值問題。因為它使我們無法正確地看待自己的所做所為。「良心不安」對我而言就是一種「惡報觀」。它本身就有問題,以問題來處理問題,還隆重得煞有其事,這是我的道德觀所無法接受的。「上帝」、「靈魂不朽」、「救贖」、「天堂」等等觀念,我即使在小時候,都不予理會,也沒有時間理會。可能我還不至於幼稚到相信這些。

   I have absolutely no knowledge of atheism as an outcome of reasoning, still less as an event: with me it is obviously by instinct. I am too inquisitive, too questionable, too high spirited to rest content with a crude answer. God is a crude answer, a piece of indelicacy against us thinkers—fundamentally even a crude prohibition to us: you shall not think! …I am interested in quite a different way in a question upon which the ‘salvation of mankind’ depends far more than it does upon any kind of quaint curiosity of the theologians; the question nutriment.

   我絕非有什麼無神論的知識來做推論或受到什麼影響。我純粹是靠著本能。我凡事喜歡追根究底、心靈崇高,簡陋的答案滿足不了我。「上帝」之說過於簡陋,對於我們思想家簡直是冒犯,本質上甚至還是禁令:你不可思想!「人類的救贖」這個問題,神學家費心思量,我卻寧可從「營養學」的觀點來探討。

  One can for convenience’ sake formulate it thus: ‘ how to nourish yourself so as to attain your maximum of strength, of virtue in the Renaissance style, of moraline-free virtue?’—My experiences here are as bad as they possibly could be; I am astonished that I heard this question so late, that I learned ‘reason’ from these experiences so late.

Only the perfect worthlessness of our German education—‘idealism’—can to some extent explain to me why on precisely this point I was backward to the point of holiness.

  為方便故,我這樣說明:吾人該如何滋養自己,以獲得最大力量,發展文藝復興的昂揚精神,及免於教條化的品德?我在這方面的心路歷程其實甚為坎坷,因為我聞道太遲,恨不得早得知此「窮理辯義」方式。原因是:我所受的德國教育,是「理想主義」,其實百無一用,以至於我對「營養學」之說,認識甚晚。

  The ‘education’ which from the first teaches one to lose sight of realities so as to hunt after altogether problematic, so-called ‘ideal’ objectives, ‘classical education’ for example—as if it were not from the first an utterly fruitless undertaking to try to unite ‘classical’ and German’ in one concept! It is, moreover, mirth-provoking—just think of a ‘classically education’ Leipziger!

   德國古典教育從一開頭,就教導我們忽視現實,以追尋大而無當的所謂「理想」,好像將「古典」與「德國」融合成為一體,到頭來就能有所成就一般。瞧瞧!這種「古典教育」所培養出來的德國公民,那副德性不禁令人發噱。

  Until my very maturest years I did in fact eat badly—in the language of morals ‘ impersonally’, ‘selflessly’, ‘altruistically’, for the salvation of cooks and other fellow Christians. With the aid of Leipzig cookery, for example, which accomplished my earliest study of Schopenhauer, I very earnestly denied my ‘will to live’. To ruin one’s stomach so as to receive inadequate nutriment—the aforesaid cookery seems to me to solve the problem wonderfully well.

   從小到大,我的精神食糧確實營養太差。那些道德字眼:「客觀」、「無私」、「利他」,都是當時烹調給基督徒享用的。在這些精神廚師的調養之下,再加上我早年閱讀叔本華的悲觀哲學,我幾乎要拒絕我的「生命意志」了!營養不良,終於弄壞我的胃腸。正本清原,我還是要回到以上所說的「營養學」才能解決。

   

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